Hello Again!

The view from my living room as the sun sets <3

Looking back at the old posts here is slightly painful (in an embarrassing way). I can see how hard I was trying to be smart, and funny, and insightful. Not that I wasn’t those things, just that all I can see is the ‘trying’ behind them.

It’s strange looking at snapshots of who I was trying to be 2 years ago. I’m sure in another two years I’ll look back at this and scoff at how young and naïve I sound.

I started this post to tell you what I’d been up to in the last two years, but it seems like not enough when you put it into words. I got a job and moved out. I got my heart broken a few times, had some periods of horrible mental health. There was a day when I’d reached the end of my tether, got in my car to drive home, only to find that my exhaust pipe had fallen off. I sobbed in the car park at work.

But I also tried pierogi for the first time, learned how to live on my own, made new friends, travelled to some far-flung places and also explored my own neighbourhood. I got some tattoos and new glasses and just lived.

I’ve made some plans for the future. Some really exciting, some kind of boring and grown up. But I’m just kind of, living life.

I will say that I miss having a space that’s all mine on the internet. Don’t get me wrong, I love social media but it feels like everyone is performing for each other. So, I’m back here, writing into the void. A little snapshot of my life that I can look back on and cringe at one day.